I need to get at this

I really need to get better at adding my posts to this blog. I find myself picking up my iPhone more then I pick up this computer. How sad it that??? Anyways, i guess I really need to update what is happening in our adoption thus far.

We have been down to see our birth mom a few more times and we keep getting closer to her as we do this. Back in March we went down and did a 3D/4D ultrasound with her and that was purely amazing. I may not the chance to feel this baby move and kick inside me but atleast I get the chance to see these moments where as some adoptive families do not get to have this and I am so grateful for the birth mom that we have. The baby is already so chubby and adorable. I cant believe that she is so close to popping out. at the time of the ultrasound she was at 31 weeks and we are now at 37 weeks. We were able to see the baby yawn, stick out her tongue, pout her lips, rub he face with her little hands. Its amazing to see technology at this level to be able to see an unborn baby so clearly. I am interested to see how she will turn out looking compared to what her photos looked like. We will know in a few short weeks.

We also went down this month recently to see her again and this time we did our Match meeting with our birth mom and our counselor Courtney. It was tremendously emotional but yet completely eye opening. We were able to see where she started from and how she got to adoption and we got the chance to really tell her where we cam from and we arrived at adoption. Needless to say our birth mom and I shared a tissue box the entire meeting. But this was well worth the trip down to go to a meeting like this.

There is a down side though still to this story.... the birth father and the husband have yet to sign away their rights. This baby technically could still not come home with us. even though our birth mom is ready for the adoption the husband still holds the cards since they are still married even though this is not his baby!!!! FRUSTRATION!!! I feel at times that I am the one doing the foot work in moving the adoption process along instead of our agency. Do not get me wrong they have down a wonderful job but I feel like I am in the dark as to why our agency has not pushed to have contact with the birth father and husband. I want this adoption to go through and be completed but I guess if it not meant to be then we will have to move on but I pray every day that this works out and we become parents in the middle of May:)

New Hope

So we have been chosen by a Birth Mom but there are few obstacles to get over before it can become officially a true match....but what adoption does not come with obstacles.

We really like this birth mom she is exactly what we are looking for in a birth mom. We were able to go down to see her after Christmas and to meet her 3 little girls. They are absolutely adorable and so full of energy. We then went to both her OB appointment and her ultrasound appointment the next day. We got the chance to meet one of the doctors in the practice where the doctor put our names into her file for future reference. The next appointment was the most exciting and so worth the visit. We got to see the baby moth and breath, yawn and gulp fluid it was truly amazing. The most amazing part about the whole thing was finding out that she is having a little GIRL!!!! I am so excited I just hope now that everything else falls into place where it should. We are hoping to name the little girl Haileigh Noelle.

We will be going back down to North Carolina to see her again and to go to another doctors appointment on February 18th.

I hope that we have better news in the next few months....on a better note we are still getting emails from other birth moms but nothing substantial. All we can do is wait and be as patient as possible

Sad News/Good News????

Uggghhh so sad today. I just got an email I think it was by accident from a birth mom who had contacted us back in September. To sum it up she ended up going with another family and her baby was born this morning. I have been praying every night that we will be sent good news before the holidays and I am hoping this isn't some cruel joke to play on my husband and I. I am happy for the family that she chose because with being in the same situation how can you not be happy for another couple to realize their dreams. The baby girl is absolutely beautiful and the new parents look so thrilled. Right now though I am just really fighting hard not to just start balling my eyes out. I had really thought that this birth mom was just weighing her options and would end up calling us and that has just not happened.

I have to keep faith though that it will be our time soon and we will get to hold our own little miracle.

The Beginning

Where do I start...I have never blogged before but I am guessing this is similar to writing in a journal but for others to see.

My husband and I are currently in the open adoption process which we have been in for over a year. We started last summer with a lawyer who turned out to be worthless and waste of our time and money. He pretty much refused to call us with any updates or possible changes that we might need to make to our adoption book. It was very frustrating! After that experience we decided to move over to an agency back in February of 2009.

So now here we are in our new agency Independent Adoption Center: www.adoptionhelp.org

I actually have to say I really like this agency they are very open and take the time to talk to you even if it is just to see how we are doing. Not only are we actually being advertised through their site but through the google analytics were ARE being viewed. It is not just a waiting game for us. We had 2 birth mothers contact us but no match as of yet. Although being with this agency now I am extremely hopeful that it is only a matter of time before we finally become parents.