Sad News/Good News????

Uggghhh so sad today. I just got an email I think it was by accident from a birth mom who had contacted us back in September. To sum it up she ended up going with another family and her baby was born this morning. I have been praying every night that we will be sent good news before the holidays and I am hoping this isn't some cruel joke to play on my husband and I. I am happy for the family that she chose because with being in the same situation how can you not be happy for another couple to realize their dreams. The baby girl is absolutely beautiful and the new parents look so thrilled. Right now though I am just really fighting hard not to just start balling my eyes out. I had really thought that this birth mom was just weighing her options and would end up calling us and that has just not happened.

I have to keep faith though that it will be our time soon and we will get to hold our own little miracle.

The Beginning

Where do I start...I have never blogged before but I am guessing this is similar to writing in a journal but for others to see.

My husband and I are currently in the open adoption process which we have been in for over a year. We started last summer with a lawyer who turned out to be worthless and waste of our time and money. He pretty much refused to call us with any updates or possible changes that we might need to make to our adoption book. It was very frustrating! After that experience we decided to move over to an agency back in February of 2009.

So now here we are in our new agency Independent Adoption Center: www.adoptionhelp.org

I actually have to say I really like this agency they are very open and take the time to talk to you even if it is just to see how we are doing. Not only are we actually being advertised through their site but through the google analytics were ARE being viewed. It is not just a waiting game for us. We had 2 birth mothers contact us but no match as of yet. Although being with this agency now I am extremely hopeful that it is only a matter of time before we finally become parents.